2010 A NEW YEAR A FRESH START............

sideways view

not a

pretty site....

front view

not much better

i sure look

happy don't i!!!!!

These pic's where taken the afternoon before i started weight watchers for a fresh start in 2010 .

I look happy in the pic's don't i??? well i kinda realised that the scales would show on my first weight in that i weighed 123.9kg, omg i'm back to the start again, so i have waisted another year, here's hoping 2010 will be a better year for me, so i have decided to stop feeling sorry for myself and put all my energy into loosing this weight instead of eating myself right back to the start.....

MY AUNTY PAULS ENGAGEMENT PARTY - JUNE 2009.....

Me with my 2 cousins Ty & James.....

With my cousin Leonard.....

With my Aunty Paul.......

So far so good things haven't been so bad have been off track a fair bit and put back on a bit of weight as i do, my weight is about 125kg so i have decided to get my butt into gear around this time................

DECEMBER - MY GRANDMA........

Ok so not the best start to the 2nd half the year, but back on track put all my hurt and pain into exercise and the right eating, instead of eating my pain with junk and no exercise!!!!!I was getting back to the lowest i had been since my sister wedding in 2005 i was down to 112.9kg...Xmas was in a few weeks my goal was if i couldn't loose t0 at least maintain my loss for the year.

But in one phone call it all crumbled i had a call to let me know that my grandma had died, it was already a part of the eyar i hate as tommorw would be my dads aniversary, OMG how could this happen not only have i lost my nana but now my grandma too, in the space of a few months, i can't remember much about that day i know i cried alot..... Finally the arrangements where made and her funeral was xmas eve, we had the viewing the night before, something i didn't know if i could do!!!!!!!!!!

My last memories where of my dad, as it was the same place where we had his viewing. For me i was 8 and i couldn't come to terms that my dad was gone, until the night of his viewing, that is one memory i still have very strong in my memory. But in the end i did and i'm very glad i did as she was peaceful and i got to say my goodbyes, as the last time i had seen her was when we where down for my nana's funeral.............

GRANDMA or OLD GRANDMA
(as my kids called her)

We had a wonderful grandmother
One who never really grew old
Her smile was made of sunshine
And her heart was solid gold
Her eyes where as bright as shinning stars
And in her cheeks fair roses u see.

We had a wonderful grandmother
And that's the way it will always be
But take heed, because
She is still keeping an eye on all of us
So lets make sure
She will like what she see's.

R.I.P GRANDMA
I LOVE U......

AUGUST -MY NANA...........

Ok where do i start??? everything was going along pretty good, i was getting some where then in august i got a phone call, that i just really didn't expect!!!! When my mum rang me to let me know that she had just been let know that my nana had passed away..... My nana was one of the strongest ladies i have ever know, I know she was getting old, but i just never thought that i would loose her, I'm just glad that when i went to the engagment party in june i went and seen her, which was about a month or so ago, so i'm so glad i got to see her.......

Nana

I really felt quiet special

That god had chosen u...

To be a person in my life

Who knew me through and through.

The time that we spent talking

I always felt you heard....

You where so good at listening

To each and every word.

Even things i didn't share

You somehow heard them, too...

It was a special gift of care

That god had given you.

So i just want to thank you

For being there for me...

Showing me love that was so true

By loving me totally.

R.I.P NANA

I LOVE U......

Catch up on 2009!!!!!

While looking for pic's for my posts i found some of me when i was little with my dad!!!!!!!!

me with my dad at my aunty pauls first wedding

i was the flower girl i was 4 years old......

another pic with my dad

i don't have that many

so i treasure them.........

As you will see in the next few posts 2009 was not the best year i have had, i guess these things can only make me stronger, well i hope so, so you will see in the next few posts some of them, Then i will catch up on the start of the new year which i'm hoping will be a better year.........