THE VERDICT!!!!!!!

OMG is it possible to gain 6.6kg's in 2 weeks, 129.4kg's now!!!!!!! + the 1kg gain the week before so really it's 7.6kg's in 3 weeks, LOL i'm good at doing the program the wrong way!!!!! well with me anything is possible!!!!! So i'm doing the fast track of the new satisfaction program, hoping to get back so i have my 20kg's lost, then move forward for the new year 2009!!!!!

So far so good food wise an points today was good, also got 35mins done on the treamill!!!! It's so hot here my hair was dripping so that has to do some good !!!!!! My new goal is 5kg's that will get me back to my 20kg lost so far!!!! Then 5% which is 6.5kg's, then 10kg, then 10% which is 13kg's, then 15kg's then 20kg's!!!!

I have joined the 10kg for easter challenge so lets hope i do better than the xmas one, but i did do pretty good!!!! I almost made made it, so hoping i will for the easter one!!!!!

My goal for this week is to do the fast track points and exercise for 30 mins everyday, I'm determind to do it!!!!

ALMOST FORGOT THE XMAS CHALLENGE!!!!!!

Well i was so close a few hundred grams from my 10kgs goal, then the last week i weighed in an gained 1kg an then i didn't weigh in again but i know i gained, i was so close, or well, i'm joining the easter challenge so hopefully i will do better with that one!!!!!!

PIC'S TAKEN OF ABBEY AND SOME OLD ONES I FOUND!!!!!!!!

EASTER 2001 WE WENT CAMPING

KURT, ALISHA, SAM & BROOKE!!!!

THIS ONE WAS TAKEN AT MY GRANDMA'S HOUSE

KYLE WAS THE YOUNGEST

HE WILL BE 10 IN JUNE!!!!

OMG FOUND THIS ONE

OF KURTS

FIRST DAY OF GRADE 1

ALISHA WHEN SHE WAS IN PRESCHOOL

LOL

SHE WILL BE 16 IN A FEW WEEKS!!!!

ABBEY SITTING IN HER GRANDMA'S

GARDEN!!!!!

i FOUND THIS PIC'S OF ME AND MY SISTER,

I HATE THAT PIC!!!!

THAT WAS THE REASON I JOINED WEIGHT WATCHERS

THE FIRST TIME!!!!

THIS PIC WAS TAKEN OF ME WHEN I WAS 1 YEAR OLD

SO THE POOR THING IS 34 YEARS OLD

AN STILL IN GOOD CONDITION!!!!

MUM & KELVIN RECCON I LOOK LIKE ABBEY

POOR KID!!!!

MY DAD AND I WITH THE RACE HORSE

HE HAD, I HAVE ONE OF HIS WINNING

PICTURES FRAMED

ME ON THE HORSE MY DAD GOT ME

HER NAME WAS BLONDIE!!!!




ABBEY AFTER SHE HAD SOME ICECREAM!!!!!!

DECEMBER!!!!! I'M SURE I'VE HIT THE BOTTOM NOW THE ONLY PLACE TO GO IS UP, SO HOPING 2009 IS A BETTER YEAR!!!!!!!!

Where do i start the begining i guess!!!!

Well started back at weight watchers a new program comming out so all excitment, sounds good we will see!!!! 16th dec we get the new material an it's our xmas break up for the year, all in all a lovely night!!! Bummer with ttom i had a 1 kg gain, go home do tea try to get abbey to eat she has been sick all day an asleep, wake her she won't eat or drink, then about 20 mins later she comes out of her room, lays on the lounge an starts to take a fit, i call kelvin the kids are all crying an upset, now she stopps breathing, omg so we run her to the hospitial
as we get there she starts, thank god is all i can say!!!! Lucky my sister got down today so i can get her to drive me over, as she has to go to bundy and only one of us can go, i get kelvin to so i can get my sister to run me home an pack us all some stuff, bye the time i get to the hospitial she is crying for her numy(dummy as we call it!!!) Lucky i had one in her dora bag!!!!i got her pj's an drink cups an all that, well my sister did!!!!Packed the kids around to my mums, so i can tell them she is ok, as they are all still very upset!!!! My mind was racing thinking how close it was to my dads aniversary, an how my cousin went through all he did, i only had the smallest glimspe an it scared the hell out of me, but we where very lucky an she is fine, just a ferbile convolustion, have to watch as she may do it again, OMG i hope not!!!! But she is ok me i spent the next week or so a mess stressing out watching her sleep touching her to make sure she was ok!!! Then the other kids started getting the temps so looking after them, didn't make it to the next weeks weigh in, but i know i have put on i can feel it!!!

XMAS CAME AND WENT

AND YES I'M STILL PICKING

AND NO I HAVEN'T WEIGHED IN YET

BUT I KNOW I HAVE PUT ON

I CAN FEEL IT!!!!!!

As if this month couldn't get any worse well it has, but as bad as it made me feel it has made me feel much more stronger and i'm hoping incontrol!!!! I got all i wanted and more for xmas a lovely ring from kelvin, a new camera, books and bits and pieces muma mia movie which he girls and i love!!!! a new mp3 player to get me motivated with my exercise!!!!

AND THE NUMBER 1 THING I WANTED A WII AND WII FIT!!!!!

Well usually i hide my weight from kelvin and the kids, but i decided not too today we all did our profile on the wii fit, of course they where all in the ideal section, me i was the bit as high as it would go obese, i just stood on there an cried i felt so horrible, i felt so yuck i have never felt so bad before, cause i have always hid it!!!! But now i have to admit it an make sure that this time next year i'm out of that obese section!!! i know i didn't get this big overnight an i know that with starting with 60kgs it will take me 2 -3 years to loose it, not like i have been beating myself up for doing so crap some weeks, but hey the muscle has to make the weight loss look slower, but i would rather it be slow an help me be not so flabby well lets hope so, so like i said what a year i sure felt today like i hit rock bottom, so i weigh in tommorrow the first time in 2 weeks so i will see the verdict!!!! But like i said here's hoping 2009 will be a better year!!!!!

NOVEMBER!!!!!

TOOK THIS PIC OF ABBEY GOING FOR HER BATH ,

MUCKED AROUND WITH IT AN MADE IT BLACK AND WHITE,

I THINK IT'S CUTE!!!!!

OK SO I'M FINALLY BACK

TO WHERE I WAS BEFORE MY B'DAY

AND NATES OP AN ALL THAT!!!!!

So i finally made it back to my 20kg loss mark on the 19th of november 2008, today is a sad day it's the one year aniversary for traee, he sure is missed but not forgotten!!!! I'm sure he is shinning bright in the sky every night!!!!!

So what i put on in 2 months took me 2 months to get back off again so that's not too bad, so far my plan for xmas is to not gain any of that 20kg back, hoping i lose some more before then, but with me who know's, just have to see an hope it all goes well!!!!! December is not the best month for me on the 19th will be 27 years since my dad passed away, that day never get's any easier, an i feel worse now not living near the cementary, where i can't go out and put flowers on his grave, but i was lucky enough to be down there for his b'day this year and again in august, an no matter where i am i still talk to him and i hope he hears me!!! an knows how much i miss him!!!!For i'm sure he is shinning bright in the sky at night watching over me and his grandkids!!!!!

My 3 months of online run out at the end of the month so i will go to meetings, i have missed it!!!!